3:53PM: Holy hell, I went to bed thinking maybe I have a head cold and woke up very, very aware I do have one. Goddamn it, every time I get my shit back on track the universe says “nope”. Fuck that, I’m gonna force my way through it. I slept until 11am/noon so with enough coffee I can get the shit I wanted to do. Granted, it’ll be done to a less quality degree, but it’ll fucking get done.
The good news is I’ve noticed a pattern with the universe shitting on me and then rewarding me for not giving up. Lets see if she wants to keep that trend going.
4:09PM: Face, on. Attitude, surviving but poor. Phones, getting charged. Let’s do this shit.
4:20PM: I feel like femdom is more demanding both with the level of creativity you’re expected to have around some rather bland, easily-made-boring topics and kinks and to tolerate (while being well-paid to do so if you’re at all good at it and know you’re worth) men acting like needy, emotionally immature shell of a human being.
I shouldn’t have to say this, but often hit dogs holler so let me get it out of the way. Not all subs. There. Do you feel better? Good. I don’t care. I just don’t want to encourage any of you idijits with all too delicate sensibilities to jump in one of my various inboxes to enlighten me on my own fuckin’ business.
Oh yes, being sick should suit my usual cruelty at work just fine.
4:31PM: Sick enough to confuse a sub with a vanilla perv. Damn it. It’s gonna be a long night.
10:58PM – Holy hell. I managed to do my members show. I (smartly) pushed up the time knowing by 9:30 I was gonna be wiped out. I was 100% right. I haven’t really tried posting any previews, but since I’m still wired on caffeine I might as well. I have enough of a backlog to work off of it shouldn’t be too difficult.
If they want new stuff when I feel like death, they can visit on of the sites I fuck around on and pay for it. That’s not even just me being a bitch, it’s smart business. Why the hell would I stress out my already angry immune system by pushing myself further physically than I need to because I was smart enough to think ahead for once.
I need to get a list together on articles I want to write to help newbie SWers who stumble across me. I’m consistently asked to already, may as well cave and accept my fate. Ha.
If I could just wiggle to my full goal I’d feel like today could count as a win. Who knows if that’ll happen, but I’m going to try until I get too exhausted (physically because I’m sick or mentally because the perverts are being idiots and/or assholes).
1:10AM – Some days this job is so slow and you get so used to making $XXX/day you really take for granted that you did while sitting in your house in relative comfort. I know it’s not like that for everyone who does SW, online or off, but I feel fortunate as fuck that my body and my skills have made it something I can rely on and excel at.
